* Note: English is not my first language. Sorry
for any mistakes, which will undoubtedly pop up like funny-shaped mushrooms.
I've been
thinking about my SwanQuen-ness for quite a while now, and I've come up with
the idea that I could differentiate two
main aspects that define my devotion for the fandom: the artistic and the sociopolitical aspect.
The reason
why I ship SwanQueen is purely emotional. I'm in love with the narrative that
it proposes. Thus, this falls completely in the artistic aspect sphere. As so,
I am not really bothered by the fact that SwanQueen is not (and, as it has been
recently pointed out, will most likely never be) canon. Of course, it saddens
me that the potential that I see in this story is overlooked in favor of other
(in my opinion much less valid) developments. But as all art is a matter of
tastes (and emotions), there's hardly anything I could complain about in this
regard. Besides, I firmly believe in the benefits of the democratization and
the appropriation of art, and, as it comes, this fandom has made a truly
impressive demonstration of this trend.
However, while
understanding and accepting the obvious fact that not everyone is inclined to
feel as I do (and that anyone is therefore entitled to like what they like), I
cannot approve of certain attitudes that are very representative of how the
sociopolitical aspect of this phenomena is being ignored.
As a way to try to explain this idea, I will share some insight on my initial reaction to this fandom. When I first started watching Once Upon a Time, it was because I am very interested in anything that has to do with tales. I fell for it thanks to a slightly embarrassing crush on Mr. Gold, which led me to fall for Rumbelle fandom. Some time before season 3 was aired, I came up with a fan made video about SwanQueen. I remember my utter shock at it. I couldn't but think: "Wait a moment, this two characters hate each other. How could anyone come up with such an idea? There is nothing that can be romanticized about this in a sensible way. This is just done for the sake of shipping a lesbian pair." And I forgot about it. I wasn't until the end of season 3 when I started wondering about it again, realizing that the Emma-Regina dynamic was one of the aspects that most appealed me. One day, I just run into my first SwanQueen fanfiction (I think it was one written by TnDani). It was all it took. I was heart and mind-blown by the possibilities of the story. To the day, I still am. SwanQueen is deeply interesting, twisted, compelling, challenging, emotional, thrilling… And it is coherent. As I got invested in the fandom, I started laughing at the radical change I had experienced regarding my opinion on the matter, at that first reaction and my inability to see the power of a story that later got such a grip on me. And then I stopped laughing. Because I realized why I had that first reaction.
As a way to try to explain this idea, I will share some insight on my initial reaction to this fandom. When I first started watching Once Upon a Time, it was because I am very interested in anything that has to do with tales. I fell for it thanks to a slightly embarrassing crush on Mr. Gold, which led me to fall for Rumbelle fandom. Some time before season 3 was aired, I came up with a fan made video about SwanQueen. I remember my utter shock at it. I couldn't but think: "Wait a moment, this two characters hate each other. How could anyone come up with such an idea? There is nothing that can be romanticized about this in a sensible way. This is just done for the sake of shipping a lesbian pair." And I forgot about it. I wasn't until the end of season 3 when I started wondering about it again, realizing that the Emma-Regina dynamic was one of the aspects that most appealed me. One day, I just run into my first SwanQueen fanfiction (I think it was one written by TnDani). It was all it took. I was heart and mind-blown by the possibilities of the story. To the day, I still am. SwanQueen is deeply interesting, twisted, compelling, challenging, emotional, thrilling… And it is coherent. As I got invested in the fandom, I started laughing at the radical change I had experienced regarding my opinion on the matter, at that first reaction and my inability to see the power of a story that later got such a grip on me. And then I stopped laughing. Because I realized why I had that first reaction.
The sad,
sad true is that I wouldn't have reacted the same way had one of the characters
of the ship been male. The thing is, I wasn't purposefully condemning
lesbianism, but I cannot deny that I was obviously taken aback by the
possibility of its existence in that particular situation. I wasn't seeing it
as "natural" as I would have seen a heterosexual ship of similar
characteristics. There is a word to name that kind of attitudes. And I should
not hesitate to use it. That, as much as it hurts me, was me being homophobic.
There is an
obvious reason why that could happen to anyone (and why it will be likely still
happen): the lack of representation of diversity in mainstream entertainment is
notorious and it contributes to build metal schemes that favor homogeneity in mental
processes and that promote certain trends, such as heteronormativity.
Once that
I've been able to understand how invisibility affects me, supposedly an open-minded,
modern woman (who likes to challenge the system and was already invested in the
problematic of how art represents homosexuality), I am more convinced than ever
that the fight to promote representation of diversity in mass-media products is
a very important one. And that is why I think that the SwanQueen phenomena has
a sociopolitical aspect that is very meaningful and that should not be overlooked.
All along
this fascinating journey through the SwanQueen experience, I have sensed
attitudes of awkwardness and discomfort that disturbed me, both from the fandom
and from the cast and crew of the show. I am more concerned with the latter. I
think it is safe to state that Once Upon a Time is not an inclusive narrative,
and that the show and its representatives have repeatedly refused to address
the issue of LGTB representation, which is specially sad given that they have
had a golden chance to do it. My guess
is that these attitudes occur not because of a lack of knowledge or conviction
regarding the importance of representativeness, but because of a very specific
policy to which creators must obey in order to carry on with the show
I cannot
help but hope that voices arising awareness would break through that barrier
and that Once Upon a Time would take the opportunity to open new fields of
visibility. The inclusion of the
SwanQueen narrative would be epic, both artistic and sociopolitical wise.
It would be a milestone.
It's not
that I need validation in order to enjoy shipping SwanQueen. SwanQueen is
lovely as it is and the potential that it holds can be wonderfully developed without
it becoming canon. But I worry. I worry that the insistence in refusing to
consider its relevance is a sign an unhealthy entertainment system, still so
very rooted in homophobia.
It doesn't seem
that Once Upon a Time is going to make the difference, though. But it's ok. If this show doesn't make it, the next one will.
What matters is that voices keep raising. That we keep fighting. Because this is important, and
SlashShipReallyReallyMatters.
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